Jasmine’s Journal:Senior year finally here

Jasmines Journal:Senior year finally here

It is hard to imagine that in eight short months I will be walking across the stage to receive my diploma. To know that 14 years of my life have been dedicated to hard work and dedication that lead me to a point where I am then forced to decided what I want to do with the rest of my life.

I thought I knew exactly what I wanted. I thought my senior year was going to be easy and I would finally be what every other grade level wanted to be, a senior. I thought I would be filling out applications knowing exactly where I wanted to go and what I wanted to do, but I was wrong. I have no idea what I want to do. Of course I have my frequent ideas of what I want to do, but something always seems to guide me in a direction opposite of what I was thinking. I was expecting for senior year to come and me be 100 percent positive of what I wanted to do.

I wanted to pursue a career where I could be rich and successful because after all that is what our society pushes us to be. Someone who can get exactly what they want no matter how miserable they are because they have money.

Ever since we were little kids we always learned about the doctors and the lawyers and that is what most of us thrived to be, because it was imprinted in our minds that money equaled success and we liked the life they lived. As you grow up it is easy to want what others have and overlook what you already have. It is part of our growth. It starts with jealousy and toys and eventually leads to careers and life altering decisions. It is easy to become what others want you to become because you want approval and acceptance from the people around you.

Over much time and researching this summer, I had to change my perspective on how I wanted to view life. One of my biggest inspirations is Dan Eldon, not necessarily because he was a journalist but because he lived every moment filled with desire and passion to learn and help. His view on life was incredible and that is how I want to live the rest of my life. I want to choose a career where I can wake up every day filled with passion and know that I am making a difference in the world around me. I have my dreams of what I want to accomplish I just need to come up with a way to achieve them. I still have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life I just know it needs to be something where helping people is involved.

I feel like choosing a college and career path is mapping out the rest of my life and in many ways it is. It scares me to think in eight months I will no longer be in high school, but in the real world with people who know exactly what they want. I am torn between staying close and living at home while I attend college or leaving my home to experience a little more of what life has to offer. All my life I have grown up in the same area surrounded by the same people, which can be comforting but also lead to a lack of the world around you. My relationship with my family has a major impact on how I will decide what I want to do. Coming from a big family where support and love is always given it is hard to go far away where that constant support system is not offered.

I have learned much from the people I have met throughout my journey so far. People that have encouraged me to pursue whatever will make me happy in the long run. I am grateful to have been able to meet people along my journey who have encouraged me and helped me become

aware of what truly is important in life. Without some of my classes and friends I have met along the way, my perspective on life could be a whole lot different.